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Dear Colby--A Final Blessing.

This is the letter I wrote to Colby that they're going to put in her casket tomorrow. 

Dear Colby,

This is my last letter to you, my final blessing. I loved and love you so very much. You and I had grown very close over the last few years. I miss you so much already, and I don't know how I'm going to make it through life without you, baby cousin. I mean, I know I'll keep going. Life will go on. But life for you will not, and that breaks my heart. I know I don't have to be sad for you because you are with Jesus, and that you will never be sad or unhappy ever again. I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that you won't be at my wedding and that I'll never get to see you get married. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that my kids will never know you and that you'll never get to have kids. I can't wrap my mind around the fact that you're really gone and that this letter will join your beautiful body in your casket. Tomorrow is your funer…

Remembering Colby.

My youngest cousin died on Sunday, December 21st. She was 19 years old, and was one of my dearest friends. A week before she died, she commented on this very blog, saying, "Haley you always have such wise things to say and you are the number one role model in my life. I love you to pieces!!! Love, Colby"
What an amazing compliment to get before she died. I do not feel deserving of the title of "number one role model," but now that she's gone I'll do my best to live up to that title. I will keep going for Colby.

Here are some of the things I had hoped for Colby:
1. That she would enjoy her new major of Psychology that she switched to a few weeks ago.
2. That she would get to be part of Sing Song next semester.
3. That she would get to pledge a social club sophomore year. I wasn't going to pressure her to pledge Sigma Theta Chi, but I would have absolutely loved it if she had.
4. That she would go on to do many great things at ACU, like being an ACU Leade…

8 Reflections on my 8th Semester of College.

Another semester has come to a close. It was my 8th one. Usually people graduate after 8, but I'm taking it slow and have 3 left. Just 3 more, and then hopefully I'll go out into the world prepared to face new challenges with a head full of knowledge and a heart full of God.

So here's some reflections after what I can only call a mediocre semester:

#1: We're all in different places. And that's okay!
This was one of the number one things I learned this semester. I was the spiritual director (AKA chaplain) for Seekers of the Word, and I especially learned through being a leader in that group that you just can't meet everyone where they are. God can; I can't! Everyone is in different places in their spiritual journey, in maturity, and in life in general. There are so many ways that we are each unique, and that's a good thing. But creating a devotional that somehow hits everyone's heart is nearly impossible...without God. I mean, if you pray about it, ma…