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Shame & Labels.

I got an email the other day that a member of our university's newspaper staff would like to interview me for an article about the new Mental Health Awareness Group starting up on campus this semester. I am not in charge of said group (which still doesn't have an official name), but I plan to be an active member of the group. I am passionate about mental health education, advocacy, and support for those who struggle (myself included). 
Long before I went to talk to the newspaper staff member, I called my Dad and excitedly told him I'd been chosen to be interviewed. 
My father, upon hearing about this interview, said something along the lines of, "Well, just don't reveal anything too personal." 
While I understood his reaction (because I know he loves me and wants to protect me), I asked him, "Why not? What do I have to be ashamed of?" To which he replied, "I just don't want people to be afraid of you or stop coming around you once they know yo…

This is My Brave.

Today was my 3rd anniversary. 
No, I'm not married, or celebrating 3 years of dating. (I'm contentedly single, if you must know. But I wouldn't be unhappy with 2016 being a year for a new relationship, if you were wondering.) 
Today was not the anniversary of a birth, death, graduation, or any other such monumental life moment. However, it was monumental for me. 
Today, three years ago, I was quietly and quickly released from a psychiatric ward in my hometown. My parents picked me up in my mother's car where my five-month-old puppy was waiting for me. We stopped at Taco Bell on the way home, because I was craving a beef Crunch Wrap Supreme, my favorite. 
And then, life. 
Life just went on, as it always seems to do. Although my world had just stopped for 18 days while I was in that psych ward, and my life had forever changed when they diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder, life kept going. 
I, however, have struggled to keep going for three solid years. No, I'm not suicidal …

2015 Year in Review.

Wow, it's strange to think that 2015 is over. This year has simultaneously flown by and been incredibly difficult.

Here's 15 things about 2015 I want to remember, starting with number 15 and counting down (though not EXACTLY in the order that I enjoyed them or in the order I cherish them):

15. Sigma Theta Chi. This year marked my last events in social club, which included formal with my wonderful friend Brantly!
14. SING SONG! I finally got to be in the Siggie act, and we WON 1st place! Woohoo!!
13. All the little things. Trips to sonic with friends. Walking Nugget around the Lunsford trail with Taylor or Savannah or Gaby. Late night trips to Whataburger. Midnight worship. Church. A beautiful sunset. So many things, too many to count. They all made this year more beautiful.
12. Getting to know new friends. Among them, new friends in Seekers (Gaby, Lindsay, Audrey, Lyla, Hannah, Paden, and Taylor) who are all tremendously talented. Gaby was my accountability buddy in Seekers, a…